Sometimes a gap is bigger then expected.
When a gap is big enough we don't realize we are in a gap. Why? because we don't see the ends. We don't see the walls. Where we are we see it is light, it looks like it is clear. We believe this is it, this is the life. We believe this light is the life. But the fact is that this light is just a slimmering light from a real light somewhere out there. As long as we don't see the walls, as long as we keep focussing on the center, we will never see the walls behing us which we have to climb up to get out of the gap. the hole we are in. The hole in the heart.
We feel warmness, we see and feel it all the best in the center. All there is in the hole. Running around in circles, doing it all over again and again. Thinking and believing that what we do, we are doing it better and better, every step in the same circle
Untill someone tells you that this is a gap. A big hole you are in. Its been there before you and you are making this hole bigger and bigger. What you are creating is nothing more then making the gap you where in since the beginning. why? because you have no idea, you have no clue, because all you see and know is inside the gap. You keep moving away from the walls, start going back and back again to the center of the hole, because you think this is where you feel safe. The light in the center is the warmest place you know. In the center the light the light is at its best. So everybody wants to be in the center, because here the light is the most wam and bright.
Untill you start realizing that staying in the center of a spinning hole is difficult. one step outside the center, and is costs you a lot of effort to go back to this center. You hold on, like runing against the rain, running against the strong wind. Facing towards the center, feeling that you have to get back. Grasping, afraid off losing it. You have your back to the walls behind you. Afraid of looking to the walls, you feel they are there. Afraid of being smashed into the wall. the walls of the hole..
Until you stand still. Breath out and the gap doesn't spin. You turn around and see the stairs in the walls. Nature sends you there. Dont fight against nature. A way to climb out of the gap. towards the surface. where the light is clear and shines directly on you.
You see the gap where you were born in. Build by the men before you. Legacy.
Facing your demons. Feeding your demons is fighting your demons: this how to grow your demons. Embracing your demons is learning from your demons. Learning what they want to tell you is understanding your demons. The legacy continues. To get out is to let go, by listening to what they really want to tell you. Listen, feel and understand them. Grow.
This makes you the man you never knew, because they were missing in the gap. A cry or shout for help, a warning, an advice. Echoed from above the gap but was heard the strongest in the center of the gap.
Climb out, to see the man. The man you missed. Stand next to him and listen to his story. The wisdom of his succes and failures while he was in the same the gap, running and grasping to be in the center. Listen and learn of the lessons he wanted to give to you. From his father and his father and his father.
To be a father, I have to understand to be a son of a father first.
The hole in the heart, closing the gap, can become the wholeness in the heart.
Anger is a demon, fear is an enemy.
Anger is the past, fear is the future.
Learn from your demons, create your future.
be mindfull, aware
open at heart, mind and will
go beyond
then there is no enemy outside yourself.
be strong,
be now.
be.
